i had a dream about sofi last night. its been so long since that happened. so, so long. i thought they were done. i had forgotten about her for a while...well anyway, the same dream that i always used to have, but better. we put everything behind us, and things were how they used to be. a fresh start. she missed me. i wish that were real. she was the best friend id ever had.

i miss my old life

i miss her

i suck.

this puppy does not.

go see yes man

i made a post from my phone on the metro but for some reason it didnt work..im not sure why, something about the amount of characters. im home now though, so here we are. i felt sick/naseous on the way back home from yuts, i feel a little better now, enough to take my brother and sister to the movies, but im still not feeling A+ or anything. when i got home i made myself food and watched family guy, then took a bath which turned into a shower.

i like making plans; the science museum, lion country safari, the seaquarium, an opera. it makes it feel real, it makes me feel good. it feels so fucking good having someone other than my mom care about me (although im greatful for that as well). i mean really care, push me to do things that matter but that i dont care enough about to actually fix them, do them. work, school, money, friends. thank you for caring. thank you for loving me, even with your black heart.

so i opened up presents from my uncle last night (hes from out of town and came down for an xmas visit)

i got a wireless keyboard + mouse, which at first i was like k wut but its actually awesome, i love how it feels typing on it. except i still have my old keyboard and mouse here so im like trying to push it away and its annoying as shit. obviously.

he also got me one of those new ipods in green:) i feel kind of bad since yut gave me his ipod, which was such a sweet thing to do, but whatever, i hope he doesnt feel bad idk haha. i shouldnt even be thinking about this, who cares? djkhg

uhhhhhhhhh yeah i got an early present from my mom too, which was my phone that stopped working TWICE. hopefully it doesnt stop again.

kewl

xbox is fun

so uh a lot of the stuff i wanted from UO is either not in stock or back ordered. some things came back in stock, but when theyre backordered...isnt that final? sighhhhhhh. i dont think my mom bought me aany of the stuff i wanted! (minus drawn to life: spongebob edition which IM REALLY EXCITED FOR and possibly film) im sad. i mean i know i should be greatful than im getting anything at all, but i cant help but be selfish.

lolllllllllll told you i was gonna get 'em:)