what.the.fuck.

IM GOING HERE THIS WEEKEND!!!

*waves*


you know what, i think this is it:)
i started out on this diet (which i started yesterday, btw hahahah long time i know) thinking i would have one or two sodas a day (vs. the 50 million that i usually have) but today i had no soda and im fine. im fine! AND i had school at 7 this morning

there are three reasons i drink soda:
-taste
-caffeine
-withdrawal if i dont

well i was not sreepy, and had no symptoms of withdrawal (which i did have before but which i will fight off now that i have day one down).

also i had a nommy pastelito this am (prob like 493085 cals but idc) and a salad for lunch. oh..and an oatmeal cookie from quiznos rofl so much for good eating. but seriously this diet isnt about all veggies, fasting, or whatever anyone elses diets consist of. mine is: no soda, no junk=candy, chips, popcorn etc. and hm...no ice cream. ill basically just eat whatever i want i mean, if i want a quiznos sub, ill fucking have it! blahblahblhdjg wordswordswords swordssssssssss.


also i wish i could go inside everyones brains and scoop out the negative thoughts/connotations they have associated with or about MDC. get your head out of your ass. its not just a community college anymore, ohhh no, its a ~*~*junior college~*~ and with my AA degree that i will receive from there, i can go to any college that i want (minus harvard, but ONLY because they dont accept transfers).

:)

just ordered these 3 books with my gc from B&N



shutup lol



and the one i wanted for xmas,




i also have about 6 more on my wishlist, yay books!

i had a dream about sofi last night. its been so long since that happened. so, so long. i thought they were done. i had forgotten about her for a while...well anyway, the same dream that i always used to have, but better. we put everything behind us, and things were how they used to be. a fresh start. she missed me. i wish that were real. she was the best friend id ever had.

i miss my old life

i miss her

i suck.

this puppy does not.

go see yes man

i made a post from my phone on the metro but for some reason it didnt work..im not sure why, something about the amount of characters. im home now though, so here we are. i felt sick/naseous on the way back home from yuts, i feel a little better now, enough to take my brother and sister to the movies, but im still not feeling A+ or anything. when i got home i made myself food and watched family guy, then took a bath which turned into a shower.

i like making plans; the science museum, lion country safari, the seaquarium, an opera. it makes it feel real, it makes me feel good. it feels so fucking good having someone other than my mom care about me (although im greatful for that as well). i mean really care, push me to do things that matter but that i dont care enough about to actually fix them, do them. work, school, money, friends. thank you for caring. thank you for loving me, even with your black heart.

so i opened up presents from my uncle last night (hes from out of town and came down for an xmas visit)

i got a wireless keyboard + mouse, which at first i was like k wut but its actually awesome, i love how it feels typing on it. except i still have my old keyboard and mouse here so im like trying to push it away and its annoying as shit. obviously.

he also got me one of those new ipods in green:) i feel kind of bad since yut gave me his ipod, which was such a sweet thing to do, but whatever, i hope he doesnt feel bad idk haha. i shouldnt even be thinking about this, who cares? djkhg

uhhhhhhhhh yeah i got an early present from my mom too, which was my phone that stopped working TWICE. hopefully it doesnt stop again.

kewl